how our love works

i really wonder why people suddenly change after they get what they wanted..

one day they are sweet, the next day they are not.
one day they are here, the next day they are gone.
one day you are important to them, the next day you are worthless.
one day they say they love you, the next day they say who are you.

that is how ironic things and people can be. pretty shits, pretty lies but it is your choice. you choose to get hurt, when you choose to be in LOVE.

at some point, i've learned that no matter how hard you play by the rules, make all the right moves and try to be ms. perfect in everyway. you dont always get the results you hoped for..i've realized, life does'nt always play out the way you wished it would..

What is a pseudo relationship?

And why does it hurt?

- it's when you don't know where you stand in a person's life; it's when you're hanging in dead air and knowing you can be thrown off anytime. it's when you're like more than friends but not really, and it's like you've lovers when it's really otherwise.

damn! sometimes you would want to wish to have never met the person at all...but at the back of your mind, you're still thankful you have...

L I T T L E Things

As you might know, the head of a company survived 9/11 because his son started kindergarten.

Another fellow was alive because it was His turn to bring donuts.

One woman was late because her Alarm clock didn't go off in time.

One was late because of being stuck on the NJ Turnpike Because of an auto accident.

One of them Missed his bus.

One spilled food on her clothes and had to take Time to change.

One's Car wouldn't start.

One went back to Answer the telephone.

One had a Child that dawdled And didn't get ready as soon as he should have.

One couldn't Get a taxi.

The one that struck me was the man Who put on a new pair of shoes that morning, Took the various means to get to work But before he got there, he developed a blister on his foot.

He stopped at a drugstore to buy a Band-Aid. That is why he is alive today.

Now when I am Stuck in traffic, Turn back to answer a ringing telephone... All the little things that annoy me. I think to myself, This is exactly where God wants me to be At this very moment..

Next time your morning seems to be Going wrong, The children are slow getting dressed, You can't seem to find the door keys, You hit every traffic light, Don't get mad or frustrated it maybe just that

God is at work watching over you.

May God continue to bless you With all those annoying little things
And may you remember their possible purpose.

buhay pag-ibig

Matagal tagal din ako hinde naka pag post ng entry dito...

Ngayon, i'am feeling sad...

Buhay pag-ibig? siguro..masarap pero masakit magmahal. Marami ako kakilala na ganyan ang problema. PAG-IBIG. Madalas kasi sa umpisa lang masaya. Sa umpisa halos walang sawang magka usap, magkatext, magkasama. Pero habang tumatagal nawawala na ang init ng pag-ibig.

Nagmahal din ako noon..tulad nang buhay pag-ibig nawala din pa unti-unti hanggang sa tuluyan na naglaho na parang bula. hays...masakit talaga minsan tanggapin kung bakit ganun ang kinahinatnan. Nag-iisip ka tuloy anu ba kulang sa akin? may nagawa ba akong mali? halos ibigay ko sa kanyan lahat..nasa kanya lang ang buong attention ko..pero iniwan pa rin ako..nanlumo ako..umiyak bawat gabi na naiisip mo siya pero wala ako magawa kasi hanggang doon na lang talaga. :(

Kaya ngayon, parang natakot ako magmahal ulit at baka ganun naman ang mangyari..minsan umaabot ako sa punto na halos kasuklaman ko lahat ng mga lalaki. Pero whatever there reason choice nila yun eh. Mahirap mag pilit kung ayaw. all you have to do is to let go and move on. not just move on but move forward. It's definitely time to move on when you do not feel accepted or appreciated.

I'm not gonna hold too long to what's never meant..sometines i need to set things free..before it totally kills me..

I had realized that love is not enough to make a relationship work. We need trust, respect, time, effort and total commitment. If a person doesn't show respect, doesn't earn your trust and cannot keep a promise. then no matter how many times they say "iloveyou" those words will be empty. take time to listen to what they don't say. take time to look at what they dont show because there are secret hidden beneath their words. So do not let passion but wisdom decide for you. Love wisely because its never easy to love and get hurt...

Make my day special..part 2

May 21- Extended ang kaarawan ko...

Dahil pag uwi sa bahay namin kagabi...nagulat ako at andun ang ilang kamag-anak namin, inivite pala sila nang mommy ko dahil may kaunting salo-salo sa bahay. Para sa pagdiriwang nang aking kaarawan. dahil nung mismong kaarawan ko ay nakalimutan nila kaya ako nagtampo. pero kinabukasan bumawi din sila :) sabay kanta nang "happy birthday"

Kaunting salo-salo: Palabok, Manok, Puto, Cake at Coke.

Simple lamang yan pero malaki ang halaga sa akin ang pag aalala sa kaarawan ko kahit walang handa basta hinde lang nila makalimutan.

Kya my Family make my most special day!

Make my day special :)

Make my day special..yan ang aking status message sa aking Yahoo Messenger dahil kahapon ay:

May 20- kahapon ay aking kaarawan. Maaga ako gumising dahil balak ko dumaan sa simbahan para magpasalamat sa puong my kapal sa mga biyayang dumarating sa buhay ko at sa ika-30 kaarawan ko. Pagdating ko sa Dagupan Catheral ay mayroon palang misa na idinadaos dun. Maswerte ako at naabutan ko ang misa nang 7:30am. At natapos eto nang 8:00am. Sakto na oras para pumasok na ako sa aking trabaho.

Pagdating ko sa opisina malugud ako binati nang mga ka opisina ko at naabasa ko sa aking lamesa ang note na to:

At sa pag log in ko sa Yahoo Messenger ko ay sunod sunod na bumati saken sila ay sina:

Sir Jun Avelino nang DTI

Normita Cabatbat nang batch’97

Norman Policaripo nang Eurolink

Bryan Nisperos co-parents

Sui Valdez nang Eurolink

Maricel Erto nang batch’97

Mabel blanco aking kaibigan

Lailyn Cendaña bestfriend ko

Jefford Secondes nang Eurolink

Ryan Jay Cuña- pinsan ko from Guam

Gilbert Perez nang batch’97

Lerwin Gutierrez aking kaibigan from Dubai

Norman Biala- kaibigan ko from LA

At sa mga bumati sa telepono:

Auntie Carmen- tita ko

Cherry- pinsan ko

Ricahrd – pinsan ko

Olinz- kaibigan ko

Diwata- co-parents ko

Jun- taga DTI

At sa mga bumati sa Text:

ate lala, ate edna, bryan, jasmin, tiffany, cherry, maclong, loi, darell, richard, dexie, jason at si liezyl.

At sa bumati sa Friendster and multiply account ko:

cherry

sarah

normita

vanessa

diana

gilbert

tita emma

rusela

marilaine

ogie

sui

pristine

Sa lahat nang bumati sa anung mang paraan MARAMING SALAMAT PO sa pag aalala nang aking kaarawan.

Nakakalungkot lang kasi sa kabila nang pag bati sa akin nang mga kamang-anak ko at mga kaibigan, e my kulang pa rin…nakalimutan mismo sa aming tahanan nang akng pamilya ang aking kaarawan. Hanggang sa aking pag uwi wala pa rin nakaalala malungkot ako umuwi nang bahay. Kung hinde ko pa binanggit sa anak ko kung anong araw ngayon hinde pa nila maalala..tska lamang ako binati...

Hays..nakakalungkot pero masaya na rin kahit papano andiyan ang aking mga kaibigan at mga kamang-anak na nagmamahal sa akin at mahal ko rin sila! and they make my day SPECIAL :)

DaBarkads

Taking a road of life without a friend is incomplete…

And a real friendship isn’t affected by social status, distance or even time, with a real friend, you can pick up a relationship where you left it. No matter how far away you’ve been, or how long it’s been since you were together. Real friendship isn’t tarnished by money or lock of it, nor it is enchanced by prestige and success. A real friend will always believe in you, always expect the best of you, and always stand his ground in defending you.

Meet my friends:

Richard Jordan Cuña- I called him rickz or chad. Beside for being my friend, he is also my cousin (1^st cousin) He is in 3^rd year college taking up ECE. A playboy one! He always have a “flavor of the month” girlfriend. Hahaha! He loves his iphone, dota games and diablo games and most of all he loves to drink and get drunk hahaha! He is very hyper! and wants thing to be done quickly (apurado) hehehe. “shat na” hehehe.

Jacky Ang- “the boss” at his early age he manage to take there family business well. The bossing of the group, who always pay the bills in the bar hehehe. He also love to drink all night long, he love his expedition, he love his rav4. “The more the merrier” is his motto with it comes to girls hahaha! Number 1 playboy. He manage all his girlfriends well without knowing how many of them hahaha! Time management is at his hand. But he is idealistic and need to believe in love. Jacky says “mahal ko na siya” hahaha!

Rosalinda Campued- also known as olinz. But I called her sweetie. I met her through Richard. She’s nice and fun to be with and I enjoyed her company. She loves romy..love to change her number. The “globe capturer” she change her cellphone number all the time. Everytime you’ll received an sms and not at your contact you’ll say it again…”si olinz naman! new number again? Hays, balak mo ba ubusin number nang globe?” hehehe.

These are my friends…we love to hang out together. Sometimes at the bar or jacky’s place and have some sugpo! And a lot of seafoods. Knowing that jacky own a hatchery here. But most of the time at Gloria jeans coffee, chit-chat together, chillin and smoking hehehe. :D

Thanks guys for sharing a bit of your time for the friendship you’ve shown to me. I may haven’t done enough to make you feel that I value you but there’s really few words I will say “thank you guys” whatever it is…:)